As always I am trying to cover subjects that I did not think about covering in previous posts. And sometimes the shortest posts are the best :)
Going back a few years, at the height of my OCD problems, one of the hardest things for me was accepting that I had OCD. I went through analysing feelings to point of exhaustion. Asking myself why I was asking questions. Maybe this is a “sign” that something is wrong. The light at the end of the tunnel came when I realised two things:
1) I could not “switch off” these thoughts easily and they were creating great anxiety. Surely this wasn’t normal ???!!!!
2) EVERYTIME, I thought I had found an answer in my mind and seemed to find some solace or peace for a few moments, the following thought was almost in every case “what if “. It would take a few seconds, few minutes or a few hours but the “what if” was always there. My brain always managed to find a “what if”. In most of the cases, almost straightway. It was really tiring arguing with myself!
This was when I started my acceptance journey towards OCD. It took me a while to fully accept this new reality but it all started by these two little observations.